Sobbing. Sharing. Silently swimming with sharks? Wailing in the middle of the night. Living left out. Lost. Learning how hard life really is. Losing. Laying around on the floor, bed or bathroom. Calling. Coughing up confessions. Dying daily or at least feeling that way some of the time. Dreaming for a moment in daylight. Dragging out the past in garbage bags. Letting it all go. Really, I have lived it already. Thinking. Trading thoughts and time, making them happier than they probably were. Wandering. Wishing. Wanting to start over then realizing you’re just now learning how to play.